Did you know you can drink for long enough
That without poison your body will seize and your heart will betray you?

Did you know you can love the wrong person for so long that your fingers will clench around your own heart while your nervous system betray’s you?

Have you tasted the seduction of despair?
Do you know how addictive feeling your body die can be?

Have you ever fallen in love with your own destruction?

Sweet man,
Do you still not know the difference between killing yourself and fighting back?

One day I will learn to believe I am a real person.
One day I will hold myself without contempt.
One day I will learn to want to be here.

One day I will be an old man and I will run my fingers through the soil in my garden.
One day I will be an old man and I will see myself in a child and I will give him words for the suffering he does not yet know how to speak into understanding.

One day I will be old.
I swear to God; one day I will be old. 

I will force this body to live.

I will push myself through another 6 decades.

I swear to God;
One day I will be old.